On Dec 7, 2010 Jeff and Miss Rose honored me with being put under their consideration. It was a path I had not imagined would happen anywhere in the near, or remotely far off future .. nor had it been a path I was on for many years prior. I was just meant to be alone .. a service submissive serving the community as a whole. Our paths crossed and the magic filled the air poof, that feeling always desired and longed for, was filling every pore of my flesh.. and over the weeks and months, flooded out and I was swimming in happy.

On Feb. 7, 2011 ... my 41st birthday, I got the bestest birthday present a submissive girl could hope for, my collar. Sir Jeff and Miss Rose officially asked me to be Theirs. I said yes without a moments hesitation. OK, actually .. we were out to dinner, and I turned into the shy, giddy, can't stop smiling, hide me now! pixie .. it took me a moment to actually say "No .. I dont need to time to think about it, Yes I want to be Yours* but there was no hesitation that I wanted to say yes!

I need, want, desire, to share my gift of my submission, not only in a physical way, but in a very mental, emotional way as well with them. I want to cherish, adore and bring out their most creative delights - letting their Dominance radiate as I please their every whim and desire. I want to be their amusement in the most trusting and loving experience.

So .. who am I? I am a life long submissive, who started growing and learning what that means in spring/summer of 1998 .. "pixie" came out Oct 28, 1998!

Fast Forward 2010 – I been told I have lots of “experience” being through 2 collars, I say I have had lots of experiences, but no real experience smiles I preach to lifestyle people a lot – take the time to explore, learn, process the lifestyle and what it can offer you. IT IS about YOUR wants needs and desires. You need to know what those are, before you could possibly ever try and fill a D/s role! I spent much time in my experiences learning and processing that.

While I consider myself submissive, I do have "slavish tendencies". I have an affliction for some protocol and "micro managing" even. I like having expectations, and being held to them.

Since we are a society of labels and everyone always asks, I consider myself a bi alpha service oriented mono/poly leather princess submissive ..

What does that all that mean and how does it work with my submission:

BI - YES! I love to PLAY and be with both sexes!! That is pretty simple ;)

Alpha I want what I want when I want it (and smiles, I do usually get it!) Yes, I can be a little spoiled, and some have even referred to me a "princess pixie" smiles yes, ok I call myself that too - aren't all girls a princess, or at least deserve to be treated like one?! I do not consider myself a spoiled brat, I do not throw temper tantrums ( unless it’s part of the role play LOL ) I find smiling and being sweet usually works more to my advantage ... and I do know my place.

Service: my greatest "submissive fix" is a "Thank You", knowing I have satisfied, did something right, made life easier, whatever it is that I can do to serve, and it doesnt have to be spoken words. It can be the "personal affection" reward - a pat on the head or a look of "good job" does wonders for a pixie! It can also feed my "attention" need - yes, I have one of those smiles I think its part of the princess thing.

Mono/Poly - When I first came into the lifestyle, I just seemed to already know I was poly. I tend to believe that, not just one person could ever meet all a person’s wants, needs and desires" - and I firmly believe life is about living to get our wants, needs, and desires met.

I evolved over the past 12 years of exploring and growing in my submission, and found that while poly natured, I would be mono to my collar. The love, honor, and respect is all for who own my collar, but I can be poly and get in my "submissive fix" without compromising my collar. It's kinda like being a pet. I am loyal and faithful to my Owner(s), but I like to go around getting all the attention I can get from everyone else that my owner permits. grins

In our community we have many friends, Dominants and submissives, whom doing something as small as holding a door open, grabbing a cup of coffee for, running an errand .. any of those "service" things works for getting my service need met in a poly way.

I live to explore and grow in this lifestyle, having it incorporated into all aspects of my existence. I don’t believe that means "24/7" BDSM. We all have to live in reality, but I do need it to be there, to have that undertone of D/s.

While I am submissive to the very core I am not a whiny doormat. ok ok ok, MAYBE sometimes I am whiny giggles, but a doormat I am never (heh, unless you tie me up and make me winks )

and we cant forget, I have quirks. My biggest hard limit, I consider a phobia, and that is no wet grass, meaning I will simply freak out into a total spaz if I have to touch wet grass with my feet. That has escalated over the years and to a lesser freak out degree, I dont like to get wet - anywhere. Sometimes so bad i cant kiss, or even be licked (ANYWHERE!) So its imperative to check with me before licking, kissing or getting me wet :)

I also tear the tops of my buns. You will just have to experience it ( and then you still may not get it! LOL)

and worst of all, I am shy as shy can be, and afraid of the dark. Deathly afraid of the dark. Paralyzing, panic, freak out and cry, scared of the dark .. but I deal with it LOL

smiles for your day ~ pixie

It's Life ~ Live it, Love it, PLAY IN IT!