i am a caring subbie who enjoys sensual submission. i enjoy trying out new things in new places. i am an adventurer and an explorer. i wish to test my limits and then go beyond (easy to do when i am in sub-space). i believe in the ying and yang in life. To every soul there is the brightness as well as shadows. The two make up the being. Finding the harmony is the key to happiness. i feel the best when i am in the shadows. i have been in and out of the lifestyle for most of my life. In my younger days i experimented with self-bondage and always enjoyed my nudity. The area i grew up in (Massachusetts) was heavily wooded. i would often go to this "special place" covered in moss and bind myself nude. Fantasizing about what could happen. i have always enjoyed nudity. i rediscovered what i was really wanting about 15 years ago, to be sub to a Mistress. i was collared, unfortunately my Mistress went through having a bad series of accidents and is now bound... to Her wheel chair. i would go visit her and be her nude servant. She would reward me with a little play. It was not like when we first met. She released me, a sad day. i have had 'nilla relationships with other women, but always something was missing. i finally realized that these women would not take me as i am, but would turn me into someone else. i have grown tired of that, now i want to be in the lifestyle. Being the real me.